Tuesday was interesting. I had rehearsal until 5-ish. Then I went home for a half hour and had to go back to the school for Carmina Burana. Gross. About halfway through the concert, I started feeling sick. But I'm a little stubborn, so I just told myself that I was overreacting and that nothing was wrong. But by about movement 19 or 20, I was dying. It sucked. Then all of the sudden my ears got hot, and the rest of my body was really cold. My vision started blacking out and I couldn't hear anything. I remember thinking to myself, "Is this what it feels like when you pass out?" and then thinking I should probably sit down in case I did pass out. And I started swaying back and forth cuz I didn't have any balance anymore. So I sat down for a while and felt like crap. Almost passing out is really hard on you. During the second to last movement, I made myself stand up again (even though I really really didn't want to). I didn't sing the rest of the time though, I just mouthed the words. By the end during the bows, I still felt sick and was almost in tears. I could barely stand up still. Not a good time... So I texted my mom and asked her to come drive me home. So she came and got me and drove me home.Right before the concert, I had looked at my phone and had seen that Sister Chynoweth, the Special Needs Mutual young women's president had called me and left a message. I had tried listening to it, but it was too late. Then after the concert, I saw that my mom had texted me saying sister chynoweth had called and to come home before listening to the message.When I got home, my mom took me over to the couch to rub my shoulders. She then said Sister Chynoweth had called. She explained that my buddy from mutual, Kayleen, had died Saturday and that her funeral was earlier in the day on Tuesday. I wish I had the words to explain my emotions. I've lost loved ones before. But this was so different. I haven't known Kayleen for very long, yet in those few short months I've become so close to her. It seemed almost unreal that she had died so suddenly, but I knew it was real. It was so unexpected and came so suddenly- like when my Uncle Steve died. I wasn't told he was going to die. I didn't get to say goodbye. That was hard.I called Sister Chynoweth to talk to her about it.
I've gone to special needs mutual once since then. I made myself busy and helped out with whatever they needed me to. It was fun, but sort of weird without Kayleen.


This is me and Kayleen my first week at mutual. I was with her the whole time even though we hadn't been assigned buddies yet. She kept on saying all night that she wanted me to be her buddy because we were best friends. And then we were buddies and she was so happy. :)


(p.s. this is an old post that I forgot to actually put up until now.)

Random Sketchbook Pictures

The one with two pictures are my portraits of Andrew Allred. They're from last year, then this year. Improvement? Yeah... a LOT!

Art is the bomb

This is Caleb Tinney. He is FANTASTIC. I took his picture for art. I'm so excited for this picture! My Concentration is the effect that Christ has on people's lives. In this picture, the boy (Caleb Tinney) will be sitting in a dark room all alone. Behind him, there is a doorway with Christ standing in it. This picture has a lot of symbols and meanings behind the colors and where everything's positioned and whatnot. So it'll be way sweet once it's done!! Art is the bomb :)

This is to get my brain flowing so I can write my english paper. Words just don't tend to work out for me. AP Art is soooo much easier than AP English! They both have killer workloads, but I find it a lot easier to express things through drawing it than using my words. Which makes me blogging right now a little ironic...
I have the best friends ever. We went to the temple recently (last week? I can't remember).

Quotes

Well I LOVE quotes. Like a lot! So I thought I'd put a bunch up here that I really like. :)

"Those who bring sunshine to the lives of others cannot keep it from themselves." -James M. Barrie

"It is amazing what you can accomplish if you do not care who gets the credit."-Harry S. Truman

"If they can make penicillin out of mouldy bread, they can sure make something out of you." -Mahummad Ali

"It is hard to fail, but it is worse never to have tried to succeed." -Theodore Roosevelt

"Wrinkles should merely indicate where smiles have been." -Mark Twain

"The less you open your heart to others, the more your heart suffers." -Deepak Chopra

“All our dreams can come true, if we have the courage to pursue them." -Walt Disney

"Let no man pull you low enough to hate him." Martin Luther King

"That some achieve great success, is proof to all that others can achieve it as well." Abraham Lincoln

"Whatever words we utter should be chosen with care for people will hear them and be influenced by them for good or ill." Buddha Spiritual Teacher, Founder of Buddhism

"I love quotations because it is a joy to find thoughts one might have, beautifully expressed with much authority by someone recognized wiser than oneself." Dietrich, Marlene 1901 - 1992, German actress and Singer

"Certain brief sentences are peerless in their ability to give one the feeling that nothing remains to be said." Rostand, Jean 1894 -1997, French Biologist and Moralist

"To love and be loved is to feel the sun from both sides." - David Viscott

"Old love does not rust." - Estonian Proverb

"Love sees roses without thorns." - German Proverb "

People are unreasonable, illogical and self-centered. Love them anyway.If you do good, people will accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives. Do good anyway. If you are successful, you will win false friends and true enemies. Succeed anyway.The good you do today will be forgotten tomorrow. Do good anyway. Honesty and frankness make you vulnerable. Be honest and frank anyway.The biggest person with the biggest ideas can be shot down by the smallest person with the smallest mind. Think big anyway. What you spend years building may be destroyed overnight. Build anyway. People really need help but may attack if you help them. Help people anyway. Give the world the best you have and you might get kicked in the teeth. Give the world the best you've got anyway." - Anonymous

"To love and win is the best thing. To love and lose, the next best." - William M. Thackeray

"From too much love of living, From hope and fear set free, We thank with brief thanksgiving Whatever gods may be That no man lives forever, That dead men rise up never; That even the weariest river Winds somewhere safe to sea." - Algernon Charles Swinburne

"When you are sorrowful look again in your heart, and you shall see that in truth you are weeping for that which has been your delight." ~Kahlil Gibran

"A human life is a story told by God." ~Hans Christian Andersen

"We must embrace pain and burn it as fuel for our journey." ~Kenji Miyazawa

"While we are mourning the loss of our friend, others are rejoicing to meet him behind the veil." ~John Taylor

"Life is eternal, and love is immortal,and death is only a horizon;and a horizon is nothing save the limit of our sight."~Rossiter Worthington Raymond

"Tears are God’s gift to us. Our holy water. They heal us as they flow." ~Rita Schiano, Sweet Bitter Love, 1997, published by The Reed Edwards Company

"If tears could build a stairway,And memories a lane,I'd walk right up to HeavenAnd bring you home again."~Author Unknown

"For some moments in life there are no words." ~David Seltzer, Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory

"Good-night! good-night! as we so oft have said
Beneath this roof at midnight, in the days
That are no more, and shall no more return.
Thou hast but taken up thy lamp and gone to bed;
I stay a little longer, as one stays
To cover up the embers that still burn."~Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

"Unable are the loved to die. For love is immortality." ~Emily Dickinson

It's really interesting to look back at this and see what I've written. oh man, I was such a dork. And probably still am...

nothing

well, nothing's really going on, but I thought I should write something on here since I never do...
oh yeah student council elections are this week. I'm running for student body president. i'm excited :)